Three and a half months later...

Just a few thoughts...

Somebody told me, not long after I got home from Africa, that the next few months would be when I learned the most from what I experienced. I didn't understand at the time but I think I do now. I don't know why it is, maybe I just process things slowly or it's needed a chance to sink in, but the last month I've felt that God has been challenging and changing me while bringing so much of what I've learned together. When people ask me what Africa taught me, in the past it's been hard to condense my thoughts into something that they would understand or begin to be able to grasp, but I think I know now. Africa showed me just how incredibly fragile and precious life is and how insignificant material things are. Consequently, that stuff can not satisfy yet all the while screaming that it is God who can. I can't deny how marvelous and great He is, and when I see this I can't help but realize how small I am. Standing in wonder of Him, I long to give Him everything, to worship Him, surrender completely. It's been so amazing to see how God has taken what I saw and helped me to grow through it. He's shown me the areas in my life that I have withheld from him and gently pried open my fingers, freeing my hands to worship him more.

Blind

I really didn't have anything to say... I was just overcome by an overwhelming sense of guilt that I haven't posted anything for a while so I thought I would. OK, not really. I just don't want to go to bed yet... I got on here not knowing what I was going to write about, but the task it's self proved to be a worthy topic. I KNOW that it's been too long when I can't remember what my password is... yeah, I know...that's bad. Maybe it's just because I'm such a devoted student that I can't make time to blog...
I must have tried at least 10 different passwords.. ranging from old ones that I've used in the past to my dog's name. I was getting really frustrated and could not think of any other possibilities, and was trying them over and over in hopes that something would work. Then I looked down and noticed that I was supposed to be typing out one of those annoying little code things that pops up for security purposes.. or whatever. I HAD been entering the right password, I just wasn't giving it all the information that it wanted. Blinded by frustration I totally had missed something that was right in front of me. I wonder how many other times this has been the case? How else am I blind because I let myself get so wrapped up and overwhelmed? Sometimes, I just need to take a deep breath and open my eyes.